Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Recaps and Reflections

Okay, first things first.  I have a question for all of you: what the hell is wrong with you people?

No, seriously, read the comments of that last post.  I'll wait.  Back?  Okay, good.  Now let's take a look at what's wrong with this picture.  Well, for one thing, you're playing third-person matchmaker, with your "oh, they'd be so cute together" and your "Poessenger."  Do we not get a say in this?  Also, those of you who are trying to pair me up with Screwtape of all people (I have no clue how you came to the conclusion there were even one-sided feelings there) do realize that he reads this blog, right?  And that he's much less receptive to jokes than I am?  And that it's kind of his job to find people?  And finally, fuck you, John.  I could have gone my whole life and not known what yaoi was, but since you brought it up, I just had to Google it.  What the fuck.  Like...seriously, what the fuck?  These things you are saying are stupid.  I mean, all of them.

That said, Poe and I have been talking.  What about is none of your business.  Any relationship or lack thereof between Poe and myself is also none of your business.  Get over it.

But anyway, second matter of business.  Donovan.  He left a comment on that last post, and I've technically already linked to it earlier.  But I guess there are some of you who probably just don't care, so I'll just reproduce it below as well:

"Thank you for this message of hope, Alan. I trust I will be seeing you at some point during my journey. You're quite lucid and amiable, for a proxy. I think I'd enjoy a talk with you in the future.

Take care until then, Messenger." 

Now, I still really don't know how to take this.  Threat?  An attempt to get on my good side?  I can't really tell.  I guess the unnerving part is that he's suddenly so calm about everything when he had formerly been pissy, and between that comment and his latest post, I think that Donny boy may be...how do I put this?  Playing with a 50-card deck?  I think that works.  He also says something about "saving" Poe (or Annabel, I guess).  That's why the fact that he'd like to talk to me kind of bothers me.  Am I her "captor" now or something?  I mean, Don, I'd love to get in contact with you so that we both know what exactly's going on, but I'm pretty sure that we both know how stupidly suicidal that'd be for you at this point.

Money's tight right now, by the way.  Poe and I have spent most of what we've saved on the bug sweeping equipment and VCR, and Jacob usually just provides us with what we need.  It's not so much a salary as it is an allowance.  Money for some food, the room, other general things...but really not a whole lot of extra money to spend.  Jacob will cover work-related expenses (for example, if I need to update my hardware or if Poe needs to travel), but I can't exactly call him up and go "hey, Jacob, I need a VCR!  Can you help me out?"  Right now he's paying for our living expenses, our food, any travel we need to do, online classes so that Nee-chan can at least go to college part-time, any medication or other medical expenses that any of us may need...he's not going to pay for a VCR so that I can watch some tapes someone dropped off at my door.

Had to cut some costs, and on top of that, there's all the stress I've had lately.  Haven't been eating well.  Haven't been sleeping well.  It's starting to affect me.  Kinda funny--the insanity seems kind of unavoidable.  I've been doing pretty well so far, and now that I'm feeling like I'm breaking down, it's for easily explainable reasons I wasn't expecting.

Whatever.  I think I'm going to try to take a nap.

And crap.  Cell rang.  It's Big Brother.  The nap's going to have to wait.  I'll get back to you in a day or two with the conversation.

-Don't Shoot The Messenger-

16 comments:

  1. You are so fun to mess with messi. The way your feathers seem to ruffle over the slightest things... it's so fucking adorable.

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  2. Fuck you, John
    Fuck you
    Fuck...

    Johnssenger? Messenjohn? nah, we're not a good couple, besides Poe seems like a nice lady, you should... well not fuck her, but at least "watch anime" with her, wink wink.
    Aaaaanyway you're a nice guy messy, i like you, even if you're dangerous for the new generation of runners, you are just too much fun ^_^

    Good luck mate, stay out of harm's way.

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  3. The human element is often the weakest link in the chain of life.

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  4. Ramen noodles + frozen vegetables + canned meat of some description.

    Fairly cheap, really tasty.

    Gets old after a while.

    You can cut the veggies and meat and have a $.15 meal though. Gotta love the starving artist/collegiate/etc. budget, ne?

    ... prolly wanna supplement the Ramen with some kinda vitamins though. I can't imagine a diet composed entirely of noodles is particularly nutrition-rich.

    Good luck, try to stay safe.

    Remember: When googling terms you don't know, safesearch moderate is probably gonna be your friend. It's still possible to see things that cannot be unseen that way, though. :( I envy your innocence.

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  5. Why is Nee-Chan taking courses online? She planning on having a real job? Don't see that working out well.

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  6. HMM. FUCK IT, I THINK IVE WATCHED LONG ENOUGH. FIRST COMMENT TIME!!!!

    WELL, DESPITE IT NOT BEING A BIG DEAL, I DO FIND IT QUITE FUCKING RIDICULOUSE TO BE THINKING ABOUT RELATIONSHIP, GIVEN THE SITUATION YOU ARE ALL IN RIGHT NOW. BUT THEN AGAIN, NOT SURE WHY YOUD POST THAT KINDA SHIT HERE IF YOU KNEW SHED READ IT ANYWAYS.
    BUT THATS JUST ME.
    THINKING LOGICALLY.
    I KNOW, ITS LCICHE, BUT WHAT CAN I SAY.

    HAND IN THERE MESSENGER. YOU MAY HAVE AN ODD POSITION IN THE LINE OF ALIGNMENT BETWEEN RUNNER AND SLENDERMAN, BUT YOUR CERTAINLY OK IN MY BOOKS.

    ILL TRY NOT TO HIT YOU WHILE I AIM AT MY ENEMYS.

    SCINCERELY, - H A C I M -

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  7. Hacim, your spelling is shit. Also, you're a moron. That is all.

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  8. True that, Blight. Even though, Hacim, what does stop people who's (pretty much) going after the Runners from being happy? Or, at least, happy in their own way.

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  9. BLIGHT. YOU KNOW NOT THE SLIGHTEST THING ABOUT ME. TO CALL ME A MORON AT THIS POINT WOULD BE A BIT FOOLISH. BUT IM NOT HERE TO SWAY OPINIONS, BELEIVE WHAT YOU MUST.

    NOW KASHI, YOU ACTUALLY MAKE A POINT. IT IS TRUE, THERE ISNT MUCH IN THE WAY. HOWEVER, I JUST THINK IT WOULD BE A BIT DANGEROUSE. IN MY EXPERIENCE, FEELINGS BETWEEN CO-WORKERS (NOT QUITE THE RIGHT TERM, BUT THE CLOSEST I CAN THINK OF AT THE MOMENT.) BECOME PROBLEMATIC. THEY CAN LEAD TO RUNNING INTO TRAPS, INTENSE EPISODES OF INSANITY OVER THE LOSS OF A LOVED ONE (IF GOD FORBID ANYTHING HAPPEN TO POE) ETC. ETC.

    SINCERELY, -H A C I M-

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  10. So does using caps make you feel like a BIG BOY there mate? Ha. Sometimes being silent is the best way to be heard.

    Like that squirrel sitting outside my window said best, Better keep your mouth shut and be considered an idiot rather than open your mouth and prove it.

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  11. NAH, I JUST LIKE THE STYLING OF CAPITAL LETTERS MORE, YA KNOW? THEY JUST ARE SO MUCH MORE..... FORMED. YEA, THAS IT.
    AND I GUESS IF IM PROVING SO BE IT. I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE ANYWAYS RIGHT?

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  12. Okay, uh, might as well respond to some of these questions.

    @Atalanta: I guess you never really know. I mean, what happens when (if) all this blows over and she finds herself needing a real job? A college education is more or less required these days. Also, Jacob's about the closest thing to a father figure she has (a human one, at least), and he insists that she at least take part-time classes.

    @Nekhs: Thanks for the tips, but I've already been through college (as has Poe). I know how handy Ramen can be. We're living mostly on sandwiches, noodles, and other cheap foods until we can get back on budget. Don't worry. We'll be fine. Like I said, we've been through college. We know how this works. Also, the moderate safe search WAS on. It's just a term that...doesn't really have any other results, considering the definition. Even the stuff that isn't NSFW is pretty obviously sexual.

    @GOD: Oh, hey there! Nice of you to take time out of your busy schedule being you to stop by and tell me hello yourself! Judging by my lack of having been smited, I guess you're not that pissed at me yet, so thanks for that.

    @-H A C I M-: You mind hitting your caps lock key an odd number of times, buddy? Seriously, any number works as long as it's not even (incidentally, 0 is an even number).

    @John: I'm going to shut up now because my mommy told me not to feed the trolls.

    @Anyone implying any sort of sexual relationship between Poe and myself: While I do believe I've mentioned that any relationship or lack thereof between the two of us is none of your concern, I think that I'll address this point (at the risk of embarrassing Poe. Erm...sorry, Poe). I...am having a very hard time imagining Poe involved in any sort of sexual relationship. Like, seriously, I'm almost incapable of imagining it. There's just something about her that keeps it from adding up. I think it's the whole nudity thing. I can't even picture Poe wearing other than a lacy black dress, let alone nothing at all.

    And yes, Poe, I know how awkward and uncomfortable that last paragraph must have been for you to read. It was really weird for me to write. We really don't have to bring it up again ever.

    -Don't Shoot The Messenger-

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  13. @MESSENGER IM SORRY TO SAY I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MEAN EXACTLY, IM NOT SURE IF YOUR TYRING TO TELL ME TO SHUT THE FUCK UP OR IF YOU ACTUALLY WERE TRYING TO FIGURE SOMETHING OUT. SO ILL GIVE A NEUTRAL ANSWER, JUST INCASE.

    MAYBE XD.

    SINCERELY, WITH CAPS (WHICH SEEMS TO BE A BOTHER FOR SOME)

    -H A C I M-

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  14. What exactly I mean is that you need to turn your goddamn caps off before I start deleting your comments altogether. If your caps lock is on, you can fix that problem by pushing the caps lock key on your keyboard an odd number of times. One would be ideal. Three would also work. I wouldn't recommend anything over 15 because there's a chance you could lose count.

    -Don't Shot The Messenger-

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  15. If this all blows over, Nee-chan should be in a prison, not an office. Maybe a mental hospital, but that's for a judge to decide.

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