It's funny, really. Most of the time when I see a runner referring to someone on our side, it's in one of two contexts, depending on who's saying it and about whom.
Either we're soulless monsters who deserve to die
or we're good at heart and just need to be shown the light and brought back to the "right side."
I'm sick of your bullshit. What makes you think that we need to be "redeemed?" What makes you think we're on the wrong side? Are you all so fucking presumptuous that you think you can preach right and wrong? If you're perfect, go ahead and let me know. I'd love to see it. Never broken a law? Never hurt someone else? Never had a selfish motive? Go ahead, raise your hand.
No? No one?
See? None of you are good people. So what gives you the right to act like you're better than us? You're not angels, so why do you get to call us demons? Who are you to judge good and evil? What do you call "evil?" Killing someone? Have any of you ever killed someone under any circumstance? I know some of you have. Maybe it was out of anger. Maybe it was out of self-defense. Maybe it was even accidental. Well I haven't. I've never killed someone. Does that mean that I'm better than you? Am I better than Zombie, a kid who does terrible things because of someone he loves? Really, I did the same thing. My crimes are just less severe. Is he a better person because he's willing to put himself through more, or a worse person because he agrees to put himself through more?
Am I a good person? Am I a bad person? I'm neither. I'm a person. You're all just people. You're not good and you're not bad, so don't fucking act like it. Don't treat me like some amazing person for enlightening you to our situation. Don't treat me like a villain for being the selfish bastard I am. I'm not a martyr, and I'm not the devil. Stop acting like I'm either.
What the fuck gives you the right to say that any of us need redemption? Maybe we're right? Have you ever thought about that? Maybe we're the ones who are right. Maybe The Boss isn't such a bad guy. Maybe he's after you because you're a bad person. Maybe he's after you because you decided to go after him. Maybe he's not even trying to do anything, and any insanity you suffer is born through your own paranoia or through preexisting conditions. After all, he sure seems to do a lot of standing around just watching you. Maybe, just maybe, you're the ones who are wrong.
But maybe you're not.
Maybe I am the bad guy here. Maybe you are better than me. But are you sure? Are you sure that your way is the right way? That it's the only way? That I'm wrong enough that you need to save me from myself? That everything will be okay if I just turn away? No. I don't try to convert you to the First Church of Slenderology, so why the fuck are you trying to convert me like not working for The Boss is some sort of religion? Hail Mary and Eternal Salvation and My Soul Needs Saving?
Fuck no. Leave us the fuck alone. You do just as much to us as we do to you.
We're all messed up people. Don't act like you're not messed up because you acknowledge the existence of some all-powerful identity whose motives you can't fathom and you've decided to arbitrarily decide that he's evil instead of neutral or good.
-Don't Shoot The Messenger-
I seem to remember the majority of commentators either being in support of your decision or not giving a fuck. If you've got something to say to a specific person, or even a few specific people, then say so. Don't take your temper tantrum out on everyone. And above all, don't try to justify yourself after the fact.
ReplyDelete^ Take note that this is also, in fact, me not giving a fuck. Wow, what a shock to have some non-judgmental advice from an only vaguely interested third party. So kindly don't take it out on me either, kthx.
As a demon of sorts, I'd like to be the first to say: "Duh." It's about time you figured it out.
DeleteNo one is good, and no one is evil. Everyone thinks that they're "Good" from their own perspective, or that "I did what I had to do"...or because "I must be bad, I have no choice, it's the only way to X".
Get over it. Your little revelation here is only a revelation to yourself.
As for your boss? Whether he's evil or not is besides the point. He's a tumor on an orderly society, as are his "people" (IE: You), and the sooner you understand that, the better (or worse) your life will be.
I speak not only of myself. I speak not only of now.
DeleteI speak of all of us, always. Of Myself. Of Zombie. Of Muad'Dib. Of Nee-chan. Of Screwtape. Of Morningstar. Of Nightscream. Of David. The list goes on.
I speak of Poe, too. Of Annabel. Of which one of them she really was and which she tried to be because of this stigma against who she was. How she tried to be "good" and it killed her.
This post has been a long time in coming.
-Don't Shoot The Messenger-
No, I think I'm pretty much bad. And you should too, since I've put quite a bit of effort into proving it. I hope this doesn't mess with your worldview. No, wait, I hope it does. That would be funnier.
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